HuiLing

2012-02-12T01:53:00.000+08:00

I know that a degree is not that important in life, but I keep thinking of what happens after getting a degree.

What paths would be opened to me?

Would my degree help me?

I want to take an easy road whereby I won't have so many tough decisions to make.

I know it's plain childish and selfish of me to say that I want to lead an easy life, but I just cant see where I would be doing in 5 years time.

I'm unable to imagine what I would be doing then, whether I'll be working and if I am what would my job be.

Heck, I dont even want to go uni.

But my mom wants me to get a degree and it's difficult to survive without a basic degree nowadays.

WHY AM I SO FICKLE MINDED AND INDECISIVE?

2012-02-02T17:04:00.000+08:00

Been a long long while since I posted.
Christmas eve last year was spent with an old friend coz she couldn't catch her flight due to lost passport.
New Year count down was with old clique combined with Xmas gift exchange due to busy schedule.
January 2012 was gone in a flash with heavy work, many date dues, dates and festivals.
A girlfriend came back from her overseas attachment; FYP report submission; CNY celebrations and most important of all, my 20th birthday.
Yes, my big 2. I'm officially certified as old now.

Today's my 2nd last day of internship, and after poster presentation and internal presentation next week, along with final oral presentation at the end of February, I would be free as hell. (:
Hoping to work like crazy during March to earn money for my grad trip at Apr.
So looking forward to it. Flight tickets were already purchased last yr. :D

2011-11-20T22:25:00.000+08:00

Finally gotten a new phone after re-contracting and waited for 2h+ last night.
Samsung Galaxy S II! <3
Started to play with it from 8+am today and bought a new screen protector for S$10/- at a shop at North Point.
And it played tricks on me from 1pm onwards.
Shutting down and restarting on its own, and the battery life increased by ~10% as it liked.
ARGH!!!!!!
%$%&*(^#*^$*$%#%
So irritated and annoyed.
Went home to get the accessories and re-contract details before heading out to the retail shop again.
AND I WAITED FOR ANOTHER 3 HOURS!!!
So freaking irritating right!
But luckily they were willing to get me an exchange.
Walked around the whole shopping mall looking for an affordable phone casing and new screen protector but wouldn't find a reasonably cheap one.
Guess what? There was a night market just beside!
And so, I got my new purple silicon casing there for just S$8/- and the shop owner ran in the rain to his other store to get me a clear screen protector for S$6-/ only and even pasted it nicely for me. (Y) =D
Oh yeah, and I need to thank Kenn for accompanying all the way.
From North Point brunch at MacDonalds, to pass stuff to my friend in the afternoon, to going home with me to get my phone stuff and to the retail store for my phone exchange.
Thank you, oombf! (:

2011-11-17T23:28:00.007+08:00

It's only November and I'm already thinking of my Christmas / birthday wishlist. =/
But still, it's better to start planning so that I can save enough to get them. :)
And the list this time is rather long:
- good non/little-chemical moisturizer and toner
- leather / casual jacket
- black jeans
- backpacking bag
- heels / boots / flip-flops
- new phone (Samsung Galaxy S II - 19/11/11)
- white gold / stainless steel ear-rings
- polaroid camera
- couple band
- Haagen-Daz cookie and cream / rum and raisin
- Watami butter scallop
- Bakerzin's cake
- Billy Bomber's chocolate milkshake
Hmm, that's all for the moment.
Will update when I have more ideas / cravings.

Jiayou, HuiLing! Work hard for you motivation! =D

2011-11-10T12:58:00.000+08:00

The process of making flask medium:
1. Weigh the amount of each component required.
2. Mix the components with required amount of water in a beaker.
3. Wash and dry the no. of flasks required.
4. Pipette in the exact amount of mixed medium into each flask.
5. Cover mouth of flask with aluminium foil to prevent contamination.
6. Stick on autoclave tape and label if necessary.
7. Send off to sterilization.

If you are only doing the drying of 14/30 of the flasks I washed and transferring 15/30 of the medium into flasks, then you might as well leave the whole process to me.
We're called partners for a reason, we were meant to share the load.
Work ends at 6pm so and making medium isn't very time consuming if we work together, so why the reluctance at 17.15?
Then at 1800 you "helped" me for 10min and left on your own, which part of that is called partnership?!

Every single workday you never fail to be late.
0830 is the reporting time but you were never on time. The earliest? 0859.
If this weren't a school lab but a real working company, you would have received warning letter or even get fired.
It's unpleasant being the early all the time, when the supervisor asked I had to make up excuses for you.
Heavy traffic, missed buses, blah blah blah.
You might have really missed the bus from time to time, but in that case shouldn't you wake up earlier?
Wait, you never wake up early either.
Even the supervisor don't bother asking for your presence in the mornings anymore. Why? Everyone in this lab knows that you never reaches early.

I hate that I must ask to to do things before you move. And that you move only move out of your room only after I've started the work for awhile.
I know that I am not perfect. I know that I screw up experiments at times. But I'm a human too and I suffer from all that stress from all this shit I feel from you.
Trying my best not to wreck the relationship we have since we meet each other every weekday until Feb, but I'm getting tired.
Closing one eye isn't working anymore and I can't close both eyes since I still need to work.
Seriously, be more initiative and responsible. PLEASE.

2011-10-19T01:15:00.000+08:00

I don't want to... not anymore.

2011-10-04T00:55:00.000+08:00

NO:
- Bubble tea, milkshake and other sweet drinks
(exception of milo, Starbucks, herbal drink, fruit juice, milk and occasional treats)
- Fastfood
(not including MacDonald's hotcakes breakfast set)

YES:
- Minimum 1000 V-man weekly
- At least 3 training sessions per week

EXPIRY DATE: 29th OCTOBER 2011

YOU CAN DO IT!
- Something worth fighting for...

2011-09-23T20:34:00.002+08:00

I need to feel more positive.

I must believe in myself.

I shall be more confident.

2011-09-07T00:09:00.000+08:00

Why am I so weak, tearing at a known bearable pain?

I need to be stronger, to feel no pain, to fear no obstacle, to climb over barriers.

Cringing at the slight of trigger is a weakness.

Overcoming it will make me better.

So why, am I hesitating, why can't I tolerate more?

2011-08-20T21:58:00.000+08:00

Why am I alive?

What's my purpose in life?

Who am I?

2011-07-19T00:12:00.000+08:00

Almost every single day, I'll ask myself:

What am I doing here? Why am I in this course?

And, almost every single day, I couldn't figure out a satisfactory answer.

2011-07-16T21:11:00.000+08:00

No more KOI or gong cha for the rest of this month.
No more Mac breakfast either, I need to control my crazy obsession with hotcakes.
And better time management.

Ok, move my diet aside, life has been rather hectic ever since this semester started.
Crazy deadlines and assignments rushing together at one go, I'm proud I managed to survive so far.
No more motivation, time nor creativity to update, so I shall just end here.

2011-06-05T04:07:00.000+08:00

The highest examinable credited module for this semester is Proteomics.

So I must get an A for this module.

No flustering about other modules when their credits are so much lower.

An A for a 1.5 credit module but a C for 8 credit module is completely USELESS.

However if you get an A in the 8 credit module, your life is saved.

Otherwise, be prepared to jump down.

Objective: GET AN A FOR PROTEOMICS!

It's a do or die thing!

2011-05-24T00:36:00.000+08:00

Competition this coming Saturday.
All the best to me and all others who are competing in Nationals.
And good luck to Sheereen for her dance concert over this Friday and Saturday.
Be graceful and careful. (:

2011-05-10T22:36:00.000+08:00

Please let it heal in time before the competition.

2011-05-02T02:10:00.001+08:00

Please get off my head and let me return to my normal life.

Because of you, I'm no longer as happy as I used to be.

I have to wear a mask to filter my emotions whenever I go out.

The moment I hear someone speak the few triggering words I start to panic.

Please, I'm slowly breaking down already.

I'm a big girl now, I don't want to cry every night anymore.

I don't know how to face you anymore, how do you expect me to go out with you?

My mind's all in a scramble and I've lost some puzzle pieces.

I can't get rid of you off my head and my heart's not hard enough.

I must be brave.

I must be strong.

I must be tough like never before.

But once I repeat these 3 sentences to myself, my tears uncontrollably drops down again.

Why am I weak?

Why am I bad?

Why must I regret again and again?

2011-04-28T00:26:00.001+08:00

Frigging frustrated and upset over this matter.
Thank you Catherine, for listening and comforting me.
Thank you Kelvin, for making me face my mistake.

2011-04-08T00:57:00.001+08:00

From 11 April until Nationals end:
-no bubble tea or milkshake or Starbucks beverage
-no fast food
-training at least twice per week

Well...
That's all for now.

2011-03-25T13:55:00.000+08:00

Training yesterday was tiring and painful.

I've lost all my confidence there and then.

I couldn't execute my moves properly, couldn't perform my usual standards, and the worst thing is, I couldn't even chase after a kid.

Pattern practice was horrible.

I kept stumbling, tangling my ribbon, unstable, all the mistakes that you can think of, I did them all.

In the end of the training, I even sprained my waist. Just from going down on splits.

This morning around 6+ am, I woke up from a horrible muscle cramp from my left calf.

Mum had to rub medical oil on my leg for awhile before the cramp could go away.

I can still feel the soreness now.

I feel really inferior and unconfident of myself right now.

Maybe it's my own punishment, for skipping too many training.

But I really feel wearied and old.

How? Tell me how?!

And today, I received my results.

I'n still not sure whether I should be glad or sad.

Looking at the people around me, their grades are like the sky and mine the mud.

To think that I've actually worked hard before the exams trying to redeem myself.

Evidently, my effort is not enough.

And if I work harder yet receive the same results, what's the use of torturing myself?

I might as well give up right now!

My heart spells despair, even though my brain keeps telling my heart that there's still hope, there's still a chance.

I want to cry right now. Just let me cry.

My fonts are red, red like the pen marks on your paper when you fail.

Yes, I'm the failure.

2011-03-21T17:11:00.001+08:00

2nd week of FYP has passed and I've survived.
Many more new things learnt and many more mistakes made.
We keep forgetting to ask our supervisor to sign our logbooks.
And I bought 2 new pens for my reports! =D
*Happiness*
After my project management assignment is handed up tomorrow, it'll be better since only daily report is left.
No more last minute work! Hahaha.

P.S: HAPPY BIRTHDAY PEIQI!! =D=D

2011-03-13T13:49:00.001+08:00

It has been a fun week.

Tiring but fun.

I've learnt something new every single day.

The most looking forward part of each day is the washing up.

Because after that is free time.

Haha.

The only drawback is the huge pile of assignments from the FYP talks.

There's like a 2000 words essay about safety, 5 500 words of literature reviews and the daily reports.

And the essay and reviews are due on Tuesday yet I've not done any yet.

Haven't even start reading a single scientific paper!

):):

2011-03-05T22:14:00.001+08:00

Year 2 is officially over and the start of Year 3 begins on Monday.
Can't wait for FYP, looking forward to doing work with my partner.
I shall work hard and do well in everything.
Let Year 2 be an end of my stupidities and Year 3 a brand new start again.
Again my resolutions for this new semester is to pay attention in class and score GPA 4.0.
And I will work hard in wushu as well.
Does not want to disappoint myself as this is the last year already.
It's my last distance in this marathon and I intend to complete the race with grace.
Everyone, please help me to reach my goals by supporting and encouraging me.
Thank you. (:

2011-02-16T00:11:00.000+08:00

I cannot find that joy anymore.
The joy of perspiring together with teammates, the joy of eating together and talk rubbish.
It's all gone, no traces for me to hold onto, nothing to make me stay.
And now I've to find excuses to escape, to run away from what I take no joy in.
But that's not true, isn't it?
If I've really lost hope, why didn't I give up?
Why am I still wishing that things would turn another way?
Why am I still thinking that someone will rescue me?
Prince Charming do not exist in real life, and I'm not princess enough for people to be bothered with either.
Does the world have someone who will care, someone who devotes him/herself to me, someone who belongs to me?
I want to shout out loud.
I want to scream and cry.
But my ego and pride does not allow.
I want to stop faking my smiles and play nice.
I don't want to be led by the nose anymore.
I want to create my own rules and my own style.
I want laugh out loud, to stare at your face and think happy thoughts.
Somehow, life isn't like that.
Life's never the way you want it.
The path in life is always bumpy, the road's missing sometimes and you have to find your way blindly.
And the final destination that you want to reach is never near, just a glimpse here and there to keep you going.
Sometimes I wonder: What the hell am I doing here on Earth?
I'm not contributive at all.
I am jealous of everyone.
I am never satisfied with what I am, yet I do nothing to change that.
Basically, in life, I'm just a big fat sore loser.
And that's going to be the way I live for the next 20 years and beyond, if I can survive that long.
After typing through all these, I feel like a whiner, a good-for-nothing.
But that's who I am right?
A spoilt bitch.

2011-02-05T21:50:00.002+08:00

Chinese New Year is here.

Time to eat and sleep and grow fat!

Haha.

I love my dad, he gave me 2 $100 notes for my ang pao.

And I'm gonna ask my mum to bank it for me since I have no idea what to do with it.

Too much money can be a headache too huh?

Anyway, people whose links I've lost, please tag me again.

I've accidentally deleted my link box and is now trying to salvage my carelessness.

Bleh.

Happy new year everyone!

And happy studying for those with tests and exams coming right after this weekend, like me.

2011-01-24T00:48:00.001+08:00

Thanks to all who wished me Happy Birthday, I had a lovely weekend.

From drinking to movie to meals, every group of friends are people that I love and treasure.

So what's not to be happy about?

A another thank you to those that gave me presents, the thought they had when choosing or making the presents were more than enough to make my heart swells.

From hand-made card and Mini Toon soft toy to treasure box and Chanel perfume, I love them all!

My birthday wish this year is rather simple:

For everyone to be healthy and a GPA of 4.0.

The latter part is a bit hard to achieve but let's all try our best okay?

^_^

2011-01-13T22:01:00.000+08:00

What a very sad and unlucky week.
Monday I forgot to bring my lab coat to school.
Yesterday I totally screwed up my experiment by extracting the wrong amount and loading the wrong solution.
Today I lost my ex-link card in school.
So what's going to happen tomorrow?

2011-01-06T23:40:00.001+08:00

Super super irritated.

Ever since I got a program that stores hacked games from a friend, Trojan has been my lappy's nightmare.

Even after I delete ALL the games, they just don't die off.

So now I have thousands of viral notification every single time I open lappy.

My girlfriend cheated on me.

I couldn't contact her the whole afternoon today.

And because of that we missed one talk and she missed her open house shift.

Then she can just appear like nothing happened with her friends.

Couldn't you just send me a text saying that you're not coming or something?

At least I know what happened and what to do.

Don't leave me clueless, how am I suppose to smile at you when you betray me?

FML man, just FML.

2010-12-28T00:23:00.000+08:00

Half the holiday is gone and I've not touch my work, at all.

Means 3 sets of research and powerpoint, completely clean.

One MBC assignment and MOBIO practical, not done.

I'm left with 6 days to do my work and I am in no mood at all.

Also, my table and closets need to be spring cleaned and blah blah blah.

Sigh.

Life's sad, indeed.

2010-12-17T00:16:00.000+08:00

Ahhhh... The joy!

Of surviving the last paper and enjoying ice-cream with your classmates and mentor together in a small cafe.

Sweeeetttttt...... <3

It's officially holiday now and the next few is gonna be fun. I hope.

First setback of the hols is that I ran out of material.

But that can be easily settled.

2nd is no Ajisen on Monday.

Yes, I repeat, no Ajisen on Monday. ): X 1000

Thirdly, I have 3 projects due on the 3rd week when school reopens, and my project mate will be overseas from this Sunday until 2011Jan05.

Yay, what a great start of the last holiday of the year.

And I have absolutely no intention to do project on the first day of the year again.

This time, my confirmed definite answer is NO.

Which concludes, I have even lesser time than I think I have and that means my holiday may not be going to be as enjoyable as I thought.

Oh well, that's life.

But still, Life, must you be that realistic? Huh?!

p.s. YuLing, I have lost count of the no. of venti mochas I drank. =/

2010-12-11T23:06:00.003+08:00

It's the time of the semester again.

Towards the end of every first half term of a semester, common test is an unavoidable event one has to go through.

It's also the time where people are stuck at their chairs, biting pencils and scratching their heads in confusion.

Me, inevitably, is going through the same phase right now.

At least I have good food and drink by my side to motivate me.

And my awesome mother to encourage me too.

Currently, Starbucks is my best friend and all communication devices are devils, except when I need help from classmates.

Sigh.

5 more days.

I shall survive this!

2010-12-09T22:16:00.000+08:00

Next week's common test, and I haven't start preparing yet.
Is that surprising? I guess not.
It's the end of the year already and I don't feel any improvement with regards to the control of my lifestyle.
I'm still wasting precious time when I could be studying or doing something more meaningful.
My wallet's empty half the time and I spend like nobody's business when I get my pocket money.
My wushu's still the same old lousy standard and my wishlist is still unfulfilled.
Time to do some serious reflection and start being more responsible.
I'm already bloody 18 and I still act like a child too much.
):

2010-12-01T23:09:00.001+08:00

It's the last month of the year!

Time passes freaking fast when you're in poly.

The last I remembered, I was still having my O's.

In another blink of an eye, the 4th semester of my poly life will be over and I'll be having my intern/ final year project.

And soon I'll graduate from school and start a new life outside.

Sigh.

Time to start planning with to do with my life now.

2010-11-27T01:21:00.001+08:00

Time to update. Last week was pretty relaxing.
Celebrated Catherine's birthday with the secondary school seniors and fellow friends at Tueday night (1Nov).
Went to an arabic pub to drink and chill before staying overnight at her house.
Hope you like the present and will use it.
(:

Recapped a bit of Jap. in the Wednesday morning and I forgot what else I did that day.
I remembered Thursday I had FYP and red camp briefing before going for training.
Friday was a normal school day, I think.
And the weekend passed smoothly.
Oh! And I ate PizzaHut and watched MegaMind on Saturday after training. (yay!)

Monday(22Nov) was MBC quiz day, and also the last day of using spectrophotometer in INPC.
Tuesday was lecture, red camp and training.
Apparently after warm up, those with no tutoring or learning could leave so I spend the time doing homework.
HarryPotter day on Wednesday!
Joshua, Roslyn and I went to watch the show after class in the evening.
We wanted the HP ezlink stickers but they were already out of stock!! (sadness to the max)
The show does not contain as much action and magic as compared to the previous installments and it is still pretty cool nevertheless.
I especially love the emotional parts of the story, it made the characters look more realistic and gorgeous.
IE presentation at Thursday was horrible and I shall not elaborate.
And yesterday was awesome.

HweeMin, LiHua, LynLi, Roslyn, YiYi and I went to Dhoby Ghaut for Astons.
IT's been a long long time since we see each other.
We hanged out at Ben and Jerry after dinner and HweeMin, Roslyn, YiYi and I proceeded to Clarke Quay for a drink.
Amazingly, we realized we did not carry enough cash only after we're going to settle bill.
In the end I had to pay with my card.
So now some of them owe me money and I don't think I'll ever get it back.
):

Helping out at NP's parent seminar in the morning later, and I have totally no clue since I skipped out the briefing yesterday to meet up with friends.
I don't even know what attire to wear.
Joshua, I pray hard that you'll text me the attire and brief me the details in the early morning.
Please please please.

What an exciting week, my wallet's totally burnt, and so as do my account.
The numbers are getting smaller and smaller and my heart goes sadder and sadder.
I totally need work now and the company's not employing me anymore.
To think I've lasted from July to October for that event, and you all forget me just because I had competition in November and wasn't able to work.
Any recommendation(s) anyone, please contact me.
But no waiting please, I am extremely confident that I would be a bad waitress.

CT is on week8, week5 is ending.
So now I have only 2 weeks to prepare.
Would anyone believe me if I said I've revised?
Of course not, since it ain't true in any way!
Sigh.
This is a warning which I should follow.
Since my resolution in this semester is to improve my grades, getting bad score in this CT is a no-no.
Note to self: It's time to start studying, and stop playing.

I want monopoly deal!

2010-11-15T00:58:00.000+08:00

On 14Nov10, I woke up in the morning to study Jap. with WenXuan.

In the evening I met up with Catherine(The Main Character), Alton, HongMing, Jeconiah, Rhymus, ShuenYee, XiangGuang, XiangJie and XiaoKai for dinner at Astons to celebrate her birthday.

Then we walked over to The Hang Out to play twister and Wii.

YuLing came over and gave Catherine a surprise birthday cake.

After the fun and laughter. Alton, Catherine, XiaoKai and I hanged back to play charades outside the MRT station until 11.30pm before XiaoKai chased after his bus and the rest of us cabbed home.

Awesome enjoyment to the max.

Ready for round 2 on Tuesday, which is Catherine's actual birthdate.

2010-11-07T00:07:00.001+08:00

I'm happy and sad.

I won and I lost.

I conquered and was conquered.

What exactly and why am I doing here?!

2010-10-31T22:55:00.000+08:00

So full of vexation and helplessness.
I've been working hard for it, but it seems that it's still not enough.
It's never gonna be enough.
When will I stop panicking and start showing my best?!
Utterly disappointed and hopeless now.
And I hate it when they look at me with sympathetic eyes, it makes me feel like a loser.
But the thing is, I am a loser.
I'm such useless dumbass who never learns her lesson.
It's not as if I displayed my usual standard and I lost.
No, it's because I panicked!
And it's always the same every bloody time!
F*ck it man! Seriously, f*ck my guts.

2010-10-25T00:45:00.000+08:00

Last minute shopping with Catherine at Orchard.

Watched Life As We Know It at cineleisure.

I love Josh Duhamel, I swear he either can control his tear glands damn well or he really put a lot of emotions into his acting.

He's so sweet when his eyes shimmered. *swoons*

Bought a pair of shoes after walking almost the whole of Far East Plaza.

Dinner treat from Catherine *claps* at Takashimaya's Ajisen outlet and I bought a hoodie from Forever21.

(Y)

Catherine had a pair of flats and sandals, the latter which I like a lot, except that it didn't suit me.

Thanks Catherine, for the wonderful girls' outing before I'm stuck to school.

And I love your dad! Haha! *winks*

School's starting in 7 hours + time, I better start making my resolution for this semester.

1: No more sleeping during lectures.

2: Regular self-study is a must.

I must salvage my GPA this semester, it's simply depressing to see the same score every semester.

Competition's in 5 days' time, totally not ready at all.

Motivation please! Cheer me up or clap for me so that I would feel less of a loser.

Seriously, I'm really not confident. But do you care at all?

You never even give a glance at me when I tried to impress you.

What's my effort for if no one appreciates it?

I know when I work hard it's for my own good, but it's more significant for me if I do things for other people's sake.

You may say that I'm silly or dumb, but that's the way I am and I have no intention of changing currently.

So can't you just look at me properly and acknowledge my existence?

Even if it's not sincere I would feel much better.

Thank you very much.

为什么你终是不把我放在眼里？

2010-10-22T01:54:00.003+08:00

School is starting really really soon.
And I'm totally not ready at all.
Been meeting up with some significant people in my life recently.
Had high-tea with Sheereen, my ex-classmate cum teammate cum friend of many years, now my rumored girlfriend.
Had lunch and some awesome arcade-fun with WenXuan, my ex-classmate cum japanese language study friend and buddy of several years.
Met up with Gabriel Yew, JieWei, JunAn and Pearle for some movie screening, ajisen and koi bubbletea.
Random meetings with Catherine here and there cos' she's the easiest to reach and my closest girl friend.
And I'll be meeting her again this Sunday before school starts for a last minute shopping and movie fun.
I'll also be meeting up with my poly clique and sec clique to buy notes and ice-skating respectively.
Though the latter one is still tentatively.

Competition is coming in 8 day's time.
I am not prepared.
Going training from Monday to Friday doesn't seem to help much at all.
In fact, I think my standard is dropping.
At this rate, I won't even be able to get 2nd last and what I want is to own that pro.
I want to show others that I can do it and stop looking down on me.
I don't wanna be a loser anymore.
But you never get what you want.
What I want may not be what I need.
And now my philosophy is taunting me.
Sigh.

Passion vs. Obligation. Which one should I choose?

2010-10-07T00:51:00.000+08:00

I SERIOUSLY HATE ANONYMOUS SPAMMERS.

THEY HAVE ABSOLUTELY NO SHAME AT ALL.

2010-10-05T02:34:00.001+08:00

I AM DAMN FED UP WITH PEOPLE LEAVING RUBBISH LINKS IN MY TAGBOX.

IF YOU HAVE THE GUTS, USE YOUR OWN NAME INSTEAD.

OTHERWISE, GRAB YOUR BALLS AND LEAVE MY BLOG THE HELL ALONE.

2010-10-04T00:38:00.002+08:00

Working for the past 3 days had been nothing but fun.

I super love this job.

Thanks Alton, for intro-ing me into the Power Ranger show, which gave me the opportunity to experience new things.

Because of that, I start to fall in love with craft work and interact with children more often.

In the past I would have tried my best to avoid them.

I'm looking forward to next month's craft work, however this would mean the closer to the end of the art program.

Test is tonight, I seriously hope I don't screw up.

Just do everything that coach commented and no stupid mistakes pleaseeee.....

And I will get to wear my first own costume.

3 more weeks before school starts.

Can't wait for the new semester.

My timetable is good this time.

Haha.

And why is people tagging rubbish links on my tagbox?!?!

Super irritated.

I want my pay check. ):

2010-09-26T22:22:00.001+08:00

I'm so glad, that I survived the hellish training camp.
3 day of physical endurance, stamina, routine, speed and power training have made us tame and docile.
And coach's homework is for us to do 100 abdominal exercise daily.
From wild fire, we have been doused to become still water.
But, we have all survived it.
So everyone who came, please give yourselves a pat on the back.
^^

Next, now that it's the end of the camp, marks the start of lecture that's 4 days consecutive.
And I haven't done 3 lectures' worth of tutorial.
And I think I'm going to get a fever.
And I'm really tired and seriously need some sleep.
So why am I wasting time here blogging instead of doing my work and rest early?
Well, I have no idea.
Maybe I just want someone to read this.
Maybe I want some notes to remind myself of this camp.
Maybe I'm just plain bored.
(=

神啊，救救我吧！

2010-09-23T23:53:00.003+08:00

Wow, 2nd week of holiday is soon to be gone, but I don't have the mood yet.

My daily schedule consists of school, work and training, but no fun!

And due to training camp and competition, I'm missing out some pretty awesome and fun work opportunities.

Camp's tomorrow and breaking on Monday, I'm having lessons from coming Monday to Thursday, work over the weekends, plus training everyday unless I'm unwell or unfit.

Sheereen!!!

Happy early Birthday!!

Sorry couldn't go to your party, but I think you'll get a pleasant surprise after your diving trip. (:

Oh well, brain's too dead to squeeze out any more content, so let's just leave it for the day?

2010-09-15T00:16:00.004+08:00

What an awesome day yesterday.

First I had brunch with Catherine at Breeks.
Being a typical Singaporean, I would try to save and thrift as much as I can, so obviously I ordered a student meal.
I wanted to try spaghetti with crab meat and mushroom sauce, yes I know I'm allergic to seafood, but still...
And, it tasted awful.
I took 2 bites and left the rest untouched.
Thank god that the soup and dessert was okay, otherwise I would tear my hair off for wasting money.

In the afternoon while waiting for Catherine to end her meeting, some random guy who I've never met before asked me for a pen, and stupid me loaned him one.
The pen isn't with me now and the guy has disappeared from the earth.
What the hell la, there goes my lovely dear pen.
It's not that the pen is expensive or has a significant value, it's just that... it's MY pen!
Sigh.

If that's not the worse, training at night was both a torture and bliss.
Torture 90%, bliss 10%.
Why is that so?
Well, firstly, there's 5 coaches today, which means they can pay more attention to each individual.
It is normally a good thing, but not so good when you haven't been training for quite some time and your skills have become rusty.
Secondly, there's a coach that knows what I'm doing, and most of what I'm doing is wrong, so it's a pain to correct what you've been practicing for the past few months.
But here comes the blissful 10%.
Because someone knows what I'm doing, I can actually learn properly and somehow learning reignites my passion.
It seems that learning something new is the spark to my fire.
Then here comes the most torturing part.
Coach Hu made us do 10 trips of frog jumps.
It's not a cake okay!
Each trip means to and back, and the distance is slightly longer than the length of a badminton court.
That's so not funny.

So, isn't it an awesome day yesterday?

2010-09-08T15:44:00.001+08:00

Yay! It's finally over.
I can have a day rest before working and training and studying and, yeah, the list goes on.
I'm contemplating whether to take up gymnas, but looking at the amount of time I have, forget it.
I'll wait for next year.
Well, for now I'll focus on Jap and work and IVP.
I hope to win a something this time round, then I can retire in peace.
But still, who know? Maybe I'll be even more hiong next year.
Haha.

2010-09-05T00:11:00.001+08:00

Almost, just 3 more.
Just 3 more days and I'll be free!!!

2010-09-01T21:06:00.000+08:00

Yesterday's training? Don't ask.

My body just never fails to disappoint me.

Tomorrow's the start of war, missiles need to be launch, weapons ready, soldiers briefed.

7 more days, just 7 more days to go.

2010-08-28T00:09:00.000+08:00

Damn.
Never be a 贪小便宜 person.

Today I went to buy McValue breakfast set before rushing for DBG remedial.
And I ate the set during remedial, of course.
Awhile after that, I got real queasy in the stomach.
I thought I was full or something, but as time goes by, it got worse.
Then I feel like puking.
I had CCTA remedial in the afternoon, so I thought I would be fine after awhile.
But at 2+ pm, I couldn't stand it anymore and went to the toilet, using the traditional hand into throat method.
And yes, I puked my breakfast out.
Half an hour later, I puked again.
Couldn't stand the discomfort of my stomach anymore, I left the class and called my mum telling her I would be cabbing home.
While waiting for the lift, I couldn't stand the urge and yes, I rushed to the toilet and puke again.
This time only bile and some white substances came out.
Thinking it'd be better if I take in something sweet, genius me bought a packet of vitasoy and drank 1/10 of it before getting into a cab.
And I am absolutely lucky that I have a plastic bag in my bag.
Why?
I vomited my vitasoy out.
Went home and vomited 5 more times, it was absolutely awful.
Oh yeah, I had diarrhea too.
But on the good side, I lost 2 kg in a day.
Pretty awesome huh.

Moral of the story: Don't be a typical Sinagaporean and go for petty advantages. =/

2010-08-26T23:30:00.000+08:00

Needs to improve.

2010-08-25T23:49:00.002+08:00

Today was bad, damn bad.
First of all, I woke up late.
Second, I went out until night.
Third, I read a storybook instead of studying!
In conclusion, I wasted my day away just like that.
And I still have the time to blog about it. ):
I didn't have my ice-cream either.
Sigh.

Only the first day was fruitful, what a disappointment.
2 days down, 14 more to go.

2010-08-25T02:41:00.001+08:00

Yesterday was good.

I wonder how I will fare today, especially since I'm going out later.

My long awaited Haagen-Dazs. (:

Sorry that I broke my exam resolution.
I actually read 2 episodes of manga. ):
But at least it's after my studying time.
Oh well, I'll work hard later too, and looking forward to Haagen-Dazs. ^^

2010-08-23T21:53:00.001+08:00

24 Aug - Study session with Sister
26 Aug - Study session 2 with Sister
27 Aug - Revision with Dr. Sergei
31 Aug - Wushu Test 2
2 Sept - Cell Culture and Tissue Application (CCTA) paper
3 Sept - Developmental Biology and Genetics (DBG) paper
4 Sept - Immunology (IMM) paper + Work (Marigold)
5 Sept - Work (Marigold) + Study session with Partner
8 Sept - Medical Microbiology (MMB) paper
9 Sept - Outing with Bestie
10 Sept - Work (Marigold)
11 Sept - Work (Marigold)
12 Sept - Work (Marigold)
15 Sept - Movie outing with the Rangers
16 Sept onwards - Japanese revision + Gym + Wushu

Now that I've a plan, it's time to execute it.
I don't want to regret after the paper anymore.
And to prove my determination, I've kept my PSP away until all my papers are over.
No more manga browsing or book borrowing from library anymore.
Funshion and anime is to be avoided as well.
I will succeed.

ONWARD AND PERSEVERE !!!

2010-08-21T01:39:00.003+08:00

Last 2 performances today and tomorrow, and it'll be the start of exam revision.

There's A LOT of catch up to do, I bet my classmates are already done with their revisions.

Why do YOG have to come before exams?

It distracts us from our studies and spoils our momentum.

I hope I am able to focus next week, there's a lot I have to cover.

I need to do damn well to maintain my GPA, which is already very bad in the first place.

I think that I am de-proving every semester, but that's not an option since I study lesser and lesser every semester too.

If this continues, I wouldn't be able to get into an local university and overseas eduction is out of my range.

Sigh.

All say but no action is useless.

I shall have to do work hard to redeem myself.

2010-08-09T01:16:00.000+08:00

Finally, it's the start of my break, where I can finally stop and breathe.

Crazy loads of presentations and tests, exams, common test are all over.

Screwed up my common test pretty badly though, 20% weightage.

Think I would need a re-test.

But I'll only do it if I get less than 45% for it.

I mean, no use redoing if all I get is am increase of 1-2% right.

Work's over too.

I just realized that my pay's $6 an hour. ):

I had assumed it was counted by day, $50 per day.

So much for the excitement.

Well, at least the work's interesting.

Can't wait for next month, we're making lanterns! (:

People, I'm free from now to this coming Friday 13 Aug.

So if you want to ask me out, whether it's for studies or entertainment, please book me early to avoid disappointment.

Alternately, you can still find me after 22 Aug, but it'll only be for educational purposes though.

Or, if you're an extremely patient person, I'm available from 10 Sept onwards, al the way to 24 Oct. (:

2010-08-05T01:16:00.001+08:00

My life is screwed.

It's 1 plus in the morning and I'm studying for Friday's MMB common test.

And I have an exam later this evening yet nothing is revised from there yet.

AND, I'm totally not prepared for the presentation in the afternoon.

I've arranged awhile ago to meet up with a friend to do revision at 6.

So far, I've only complete 3 chapters, 10 more to go.

Plus another 14 topics and 1 presentation.

Life is sweet.

2010-08-02T23:56:00.002+08:00

Slept from 3.10 to 3.50 today. And yes, both are in AM.

However my test was still screwed.

It's the last week, I seriously need to buck up.

This cannot go on anymore, my grades cannot drop any further.

Oh god, I'm killing my future at this rate.

FML.

2010-08-01T03:34:00.000+08:00

Watched Inception with PeiQi and ShangYun yesterday night.
It's been a long long time since I last see them.

This week is the last study week before school break commence.
And it'll also be my busiest week as well.
CCTA presentation and IMM dry practical test on Monday.
YOG rehearsal on Tuesday.
UR presentation and RM1 exam on Thursday.
MMB common test and CCA testing on Friday.
Work on Saturday and Sunday.
How awesome.

It's like telling me there's no need to sleep for the entire week. =/

2010-07-29T16:49:00.002+08:00

I have a very interesting sleep routine.
Last week, I slept a total of 22 hours, ranging from 1-6 hours per day.
Monday night, I slept from 2+am all the way to 6.30pm.
Tuesday, I didn't sleep a wink at all.
Wednesday I slept right after the moment I fall onto bed (was going to lie down a short while only) and woke up at 12+am, after which I slept at the sofa until 7+am this morning.
Am I awesome or am I awesome?

2010-07-28T16:21:00.003+08:00

This is so irritating.
I thought I had that group presentation done and over with, and now I'm told I'm one of the groups that are going to do their presentations to the whole cohort next week?!
Just when I thought I'm rid of those irresponsible group members that I don't even want to call them teammates.
What is this man?!
Super duper ultra NOT FAIR!

2010-07-28T01:53:00.002+08:00

If you think you're the only one who's busy and all stressed up, you're wrong.

I have tests and presentations coming up, I have project meetings everyday.

But do you hear me complaining?

So what if I don't have FYP, there's lots of other things I have to do instead right!

It's not about whether you're committed or punctual or anything.

It's whether you're willing to work for it.

If you can't attend training, then you should do something to make up for it.

Not complain when you cannot catch up.

Don't scold vulgarities when people tell you that the content have changed.

Be glad that people even bothered to volunteered out that information.

If people don't care, they wouldn't have tell you and you can learn about it all on your own.

If you want something that badly, you should work for it, not sulk and wail.

That won't work.

Don't have time? Make time!

Everyone on earth has 24 hours per day, why is it that other people can make time for things but not you?

口说不动没有用！

I don't care what you have gained or lost in your 3 years, but since it's your last year, shouldn't you grind up and work extra extra hard so as not to leave any regrets?

If caring and concern is such an INSULT to you, don't worry. I won't bother you AGAIN.

And please don't change other people's words like they're your own.

2010-07-25T03:33:00.000+08:00

突然想到一件很白痴的事。

昨天晚上，我和朋友要过马路。

还没到马路之前，有一个类似栏杆的东西。

经过朋友的取笑，我决定要跳过栏杆。

结果，

还没走到栏杆前就因为地湿而滑倒！

别人是因为跳栏杆失败而跌倒，我呢，还没跳就已经跌了。

那如果真跳过还得了？！

一定会跌的四脚朝天的。

2010-07-25T03:07:00.002+08:00

应该是放下娱乐抱起书本的时候了。

测验不及格已是个严重警告，若不再加把劲，我一定会败得很惨的。

到时就算报十个佛脚都没有用。

说到这里，现在已经是大约凌晨三点了，为何我还在这里浪费时间呢？

不是应该在睡觉或读书吗？

自认行为不对还不肯纠正，真是个没用的家伙。

咳。

该对自己如何是好呢？

选拔就快到了，我却还没准备好，学业又让我喘不过气来，真是令人烦恼。

这下只好硬下头皮，希望能闯过这关了。

哎呀，不管这么多了，走一步算一步巴。

船到桥头自然直。

为了你我付出了那么多，这么做真的值得吗？

2010-07-24T00:26:00.003+08:00

Thanks Catherine!
Love the new skin.
Yeah, you're right. It's easier to edit now and I've played with the colors a bit.
Haha.

I think I'll pass the retest.
Simply cannot imagine myself fail something twice.
That would be so humiliating.

I'm tired and lazy.

如果有一天我因你而走火入魔，那该如何是好？

2010-07-22T01:00:00.001+08:00

My eyes are shutting down as I'm typing all these out.
I realized that I have A LOT OF WORK undone.
I have a report due in the afternoon later on and training at night.
1 WIKIS and report due on Friday, and my retest.
1 presentation on the coming Monday, plus 1 assignment and 3 reports.
Finally 1 presentation, 1 assignment and 1 report due on Tuesday before I get a few days break.
And so far, I've only done 1 assignment, and it's the one that's due on Tuesday.
Which means I've still not clear any work that's due this week!
Bleh!

And because of my school work, YOG and CCA, I need to delay on my Japanese classes.
I've no confidence in passing the JLPT, and I need to register real soon or I would have to wait for another year, again.
Another bleh.

Well, better get on with my work before I really fall asleep.
To all those that I owe work to, I'm really sorry but there's only one me.
Please tolerate me for awhile more.

我发现,我越来越爱你了。 <3

2010-07-16T01:19:00.003+08:00

I think I need to start planning my time well.
YOG is coming soon, which means there would be a 3 weeks break from school.
Then another week of study break before the semester examination comes.
Which equates to forgetting everything before exam.
Hooray.

There's 1 webpage and 2 presentations due next week, and I haven't start work yet.
And there's the retest too.
Everyone seems so shock when I told them I failed a paper.
Did they think I was joking?
I know I was good in the past, but that was the past.
Everything seems to be wrong after O'levels.
Sigh.

I have lost interest in studies, in biology (Surprise!), in everything I do.
Even things like facebook and twitter is starting to get boring now.
Only wushu is getting slightly better, after much quarrels and contemplation.
I have targets for wushu now. (haha...)

And I seriously need to do revision.
But, how to start?
Who to motivate me and help me?

If you cannot correct your own heart, how can you correct others?

p.s. I want a new bag pack! ):

2010-07-10T17:22:00.002+08:00

Tired to the max.

2010-07-08T01:42:00.005+08:00

为了你，我们付出了那么多。
可是你却这样对我们，为什么？

你说你想得冠军，却在这个关头说放弃，值得吗？
走了那么遥远的路，就快到关卡了，现在才说停下来，是不是太浪费了呢？
大家都说你可以，你却一再而在的放弃自己，到了过后才来后悔已经太迟了。
大家想帮你，就请你帮帮你自己吧。

因为有你的支持，我熬过了这么多，你就不能为了我和我一起走下去吗？
现在不是只剩下你一个人在后头跑，而是大家都在往同一个方向前进，跟我们一起不行吗？
为了一个目的的你已放弃了很多，如果现在连目标也失去的话，你一定会后悔的。
你想带着这个悔恨和你一起走一生吗？

回头是岸啊。

2010-06-29T01:22:00.005+08:00

Looking through some past emails, I found this:

"And yes, I won't quit wushu. Even if I lose interest or go training less frequently, I still wont quit. It's not something that I can give up easily."

That, was a promise I made to a beloved someone a few months ago.
And I actually conveniently forgot such a promise so easily to some silly squabble and stubbornness.
I can't believe I almost broke a promise made to that person.
To think the guilt if I actually did break it.

To me, promises is everything. If you break yours, you're nothing to me. But if I break mine, I'm worse than nothing.

2010-06-29T00:36:00.001+08:00

"Everyone has their own attitude.
Why complain about other people attitude when you don't look at YOUR own.
You get what you deserve by how you treat others."

I guess I finally 开窍 after cooling off my head.

I was acting like a hot-blooded fool, and what happened was an act of selfishness mixed with plenty of immaturity.

I believe you two deserve an apology.

I'm sorry.

实在是舍不得放手，所以我选择了放下。

2010-06-27T00:42:00.001+08:00

I hate the me right now.

2010-06-26T02:56:00.001+08:00

FUCK OFF!
You don't know me, so don't pretend that you understand me very well and judge me.
You know shit about me at all and you assume like you know everything and think that you're such a big shot!
Just because you're like that doesn't mean the same thing applies to me too.
Don't act like you're very nice and you're doing a great thing and everyone should feel gratified.
Are you expecting us to worship you, huh?!

And you.
Just because you like something doesn't mean that the whole world likes it too.
I'm not purposely trying to be defiant but I seriously don't like that thing in the first place.
The only reason I'm learning this is because the one I respected wanted us to.
Do you really think I enjoy being criticized or act like a spoilt kid?
And if you don't know I'll tell you again, I'm an insecure person.
If I act damn independent, that's not because it's who I am, but because I can't trust anyone else.
So don't just speculate and stand aside.
I need a pat at the shoulder or a hug at times.
And I don't deal well with threats either, if you threaten me I'll leave everything behind and go.
I mean it for real this time.
I'm sick of waiting and hoping uselessly every single time.

Am seriously going nuts...

2010-06-20T00:46:00.000+08:00

Awesome job!

Working as a performer for Power Ranger road show is awesome!

The thrill of hearing your role being shouted passionately by children, the terror of being up on stage, and the satisfaction of completing each show is simply priceless.

And not to miss the new friendships kindled!

Well, heading for bed soon, with the last showcase later in the afternoon.

Adieu. ^^

2010-06-08T18:44:00.001+08:00

I can't believe this is happening.
I actually totally screwed up 2 papers! And they're no minor papers either.
What deep shit has I got myself into? Totally GG.
Seems that my 2 weeks break would have to be used to revise for retest and trainings.

Damn it man. Why couldn't I concentrate??
Or is it, is it like what it was in the past?
I couldn't study well after that accident too.
Damn damn damn.
I'm digging deeper and deeper into my grave. Hallelujah.
At least I think I scored for MMB. I think.

Should never have let things went that way man. Totally regret now.
But life's like that huh. *sarcastic laugh*

Tomorrow's the last battle, please please please let me survive this.
I can't take anymore setbacks.

2010-05-23T13:28:00.003+08:00

Can't imagining being awake so early in a Sunday morning.

Was a great Saturday yesterday.

Went for training, which was a pretty waste of time if not for the sword routine.

Following that was lunch at Just Acia.

The food there was okay, I had chargrill chicken and coleslaw.

Went to to rest, pack and bathe; then off to dinner at Northpoint with Wayne and YuLing.

After which the three of us set off to staying over at Catherine's house.

There's no way you can go hungry at her house, and why is that?

That's 'cos her food supplies is enough for WW3. Haha.

I actually managed to do my Reaction Mechanism homework and Medical Microbiology revision with Wayne and YuLing in the study room.

And was faster than usual too. Probably didn't want to let them see me slacking.

I know I know, I'm a prideful creature.

We played Hotel626 after we all completed our work.

(Catherine, you ultra slacker! We went over to keep you company to motivate you to do work. Instead you went off to SLEEP!!).

YuLing, it's not scary! You need to eat some bear's gut to improve your endurance towards horror. ^^

I was the last to sleep, as usual, but I got Catherine's bed and blanket! (:

Woke up at 10am and the four of us ate breakfast together.

I love Yani, her cooking skills is awesome. Had a bit of cereals too.

(Tell you a secret, I didn't brush my teeth!)

All in all, it was a pretty fun trip, especially with Wayne and YuLing around.

Wayne and I combo-ed a lot of tricks on YuLing.

Seriously, life cannot be better than this; hanging around with fun friends, living life in a relax mode.

It keeps me away from pessimism.

You set me thinking, maybe I should oil the door hinges and unlock the door.

But I won't open it yet. I may be able to welcome visitors though.

Give me more time.

Life in Semester3 is hectic.
There's little tutorial, which means plenty of initiated self-study is required.
And I suck at that.
Hates practical too, lots of observation = lab coat in bag. And the questions ain't straight forward and easy as before.
Extra-curriculum is killing me. Boring trainings and crazy chemistry reactions are driving me nuts.
Maybe I shall be a squirrel. Haha.
And I seriously seriously need to tune my body clock to normal.
~~Sleeping pills aren't helping, so thanks but no thanks.~~
Sigh.

2010-05-08T00:21:00.000+08:00

An idiot went for a cold shower in the cold night.

She ended up having coldness creping up to the bones.

And she got fever as well now.

Yes, the idiot is me.

Was pretty stupid and impulsive during training yesterday.

I think I compared things and regretted options too much, and as such lost myself in the process.

Never had I had a tantrum in front of anyone since poly started.

Seems that I need to do some serious self reflections.

2010-04-24T01:41:00.000+08:00

Why must people always probe into other's business?
Can't they leave things as it is?
Don't they know that every time each of them asks, it's like a stab into the heart.
Shouldn't they just accept the conclusion and stop asking painful questions?!

Please just mind your own business.

2010-04-21T01:48:00.003+08:00

I guess I'm really good at hiding my emotions now.

I can laugh and joke with people even when I'm absolutely not in the mood to do so.

Really dislike the new class.

I don't hate them or anything, but, Roslyn and me couldn't fit into them.

They're already a family and I feel like a total intruder.

I'm standing among a bunch of strangers. Worse, I'm the only odd one out.

It's like a black dot in the middle of a piece of white paper, obvious and unpleasant.

Bet they would be happier without me.

Signed up for several cca(s), but I think I'll only be joining one.

Will still be in wushu though, can't bear to leave such loving friends.

I hope I'm able to survive this two semesters.

I miss you awfully much, YiYi.

Lectures' not the same without you.

No one to wake me up from dozing off, no one to gossip and lame with me, no one to lend me notes.

Argh, school's just not the same without you.

I don't care, you must sit beside me during every lecture and tutorial for dip+ okay? (:

I'm tired and sick-feeling recently.

Had daily headaches and giddiness.

I think I need more rest, but I can't.

I need to be on the move constantly so that I won't be able to think unnecessarily.

I dunno whether the decision was a correct one or not, but I'm not going to regret it, no matter what.

The deed has been done, now is time to move on.

I cannot show my weakness again.

My lifelessness four years ago had worried my mum, and so I shall not display such unfilial emotions to sadden her again.

It's time I grow up.

If giving you up is hard, surviving the pain and other peoples' looks is harder, and living as I once was is hardest.

2010-04-17T02:07:00.002+08:00

School is restarting soon, juniors are coming in, and I'll be a sophomore!

Excited!

Read through my practical manuals and I'm no longer so excited anymore.

How can someone be happy when they know that their practicals consist of dissecting mouse to collect and culture spleen?

Unless you are a sadist of course.

And on the side note, we still have to care for the mice until it's time to "kill" them.

Been having trainings 3 times per week.

Not gaining anything much except that time is wasted.

There's VERY little quality training, not that I mind of course.

And I still haven't tidy up my stuff!!

Argh.

And I need to readjust my sleeping time as well.

Damn, life is just too short.

Two person bought me koi bubbletea yesterday. =P

Maybe I'm just not suited for this.

Maybe I should just give up.

2010-04-14T00:33:00.000+08:00

It's been a while since I last posted.
That's what holiday does to me, makes me lazy.
Nothing much happened during this past week.
The usual's happening: trainings, studies, outings and slacking.
School's reopening next week. (Oh gosh, that's fast!)

Missions to be accomplished before 19 April:
-Tidy my table and cabinet
-Clear space for new modules' notes
-Finish my wushu routine
-Decide on interested competition routine(s)
-Decide on a new CCA to join (optional)

2010-04-05T23:16:00.000+08:00

Been to wushu camp from 1-4 Apr.
Should I say it's an awesome fun??
Now I'm back and Secondary School and Junior College Wushu Inter-school Competition is commencing tomorrow.
I'll be going down everyday to root for my juniors and Sino friends.
And I get to have free rides from my alma mater, which means I can eat from the school canteen!! =D
Awesome!
Well, that's all for now.
I hope you all win, but be careful what you wish for.

2010-03-27T03:04:00.000+08:00

Since holiday started till now, I've been lazy.
And surely you should know that by now by reading my recent activities.
Yup, I've been lazy to blog as well.
Alright, let's see what I've been doing for this week.

Tuesday:
Went training earlier to learn the 13th style taiji for the mess demo on 4Apr.
And I did my 前扫 properly for the first time! (=

Wednesday:
Outing with beloved mama.
Went to Sembawang Shopping Centre. Most of the time was spent in Daiso.
Then we took the shuttle bus to Sun Plaza where we hanged at my favourite place, and yes you got it, the library.

Thursday:
Spent the whole day sleeping until 18.30 when Catherine called me to help her buy honey.
Read 2 books throughout the night and finished at 5+ am.
After which I brush my teeth and the usual routine before lying in bed watching videos from my phone.

Friday:
Slept from 7am. Supposed to wake at 10 to prepare before going out with Qi but as usual, I overslept.
Sorry, darling!
And went to training as usual.

Today:
Am going to ice-skate with a few NPwushu friends.
Then will be staying over at Hard Rock Hotel with DaJieDa, HongMing, Kwanter, ShuenYee, TzeYuen and XiaoKai before heading to Universal Studio the following day.
Hello, fun and laughter! (=

2010-03-22T21:42:00.001+08:00

It's been quite awhile since I last posted.
3 weeks of holiday is gone and I feel quite lazy.
Dip+ is over for now and I'm left with a report and exam when school reopens.
So, what did I do for the past week?

Monday:
Had my 2nd last lecture with Dr Koh and ate lunch with my mama.

Tuesday:
Went for training.

Wednesday:
Had my 4s2 class gathering.
It was awesome!

Thursday:
Last lecture with Dr Koh.
Celebrated 2 of my friends' belated birthday at AMK hub.
Ate Fish and Co., watched Kaiji and went to the arcade before rushing off to school for training.
You guys rock my socks off!! =D

Friday:
Supposedly to have another birthday celebration but some of the people were busy with activities and so it's postponed to today.

Saturday:
Went to Maur, Malaysia for temples visiting.
Had a 7 courses meal and dessert for lunch and dinner.

Sunday:
Went to school to perform for the sports camp.
We rocked the whole hall.
And ate KFC for dinner.

Today!
An awesome and awful day today.
Went to school to submit work and print some notes.
The printing room in level3 of the library went out of papers and I went down to the printing area near Each-a-Cup instead.
Then I rushed off to Plaza Singapura for Ajisen and "How to Train your Dragon in 3D" with my beloved sister and another 2 good friends.
After which we walked around a bit before going home.
And you know what?
I was in the train when I noticed that a card was missing from one of the slots of my wallet.
Yes, I forgot to remove my cashcard from the machine in the library in the level3 printing room.
Damn sad can!
I topped up $20 and it's unused!!
Damn the dishonest lucky bastard who got my card!! =/
And thanks friend, for helping me to look for it.

Training again tomorrow. Wonders what I'll be doing.
Sigh. My cashcard! )=

2010-03-12T01:58:00.001+08:00

Copied from you,

guilt = restrictions = life's not mine.

And you know what, I totally agree!

To understand it, you must experience it. I've forgotten that red equation for quite a few years, but something happened and, oh well, I hope you get what I mean.

But honey, life's not just about others' feelings. Consider your own's first before caring about others. (I may say that but I don't follow it) Sad, but true. So now everything's bottled up inside me, and I'm avoiding reality as usual by not thinking about it. Because for me, if I don't think about it, some time or late it will disappear.

Push that aside, just be more selfish. Okay?
Otherwise, you can never be happy and carefree. If it doesn't work, you need to find a method that suits you. Love and concern can be such harmful emotions at times.

Dedicated to: Sheereen

2010-03-12T00:06:00.001+08:00

Not in a very good mood.

2010-03-06T01:09:00.000+08:00

Sigh.
Attack again.
2nd time this year. Not awesome.
This is what happens when I don't go training for 3 weeks.
Punishment for slacking and procrastination.
And staying late every night played a part.
So, a promise to make for myself this holiday:
Off laptop by 3am every night, and be in bed by 3.30. (=
Will I be able to keep it? I sincerely hope so.
Since I always tell people I keep my promises.
Haha.

One week of holiday is about to be gone.
And as usual, I had not done anything constructive.
But at least I went for lectures, unlike someone who woke up at 10am on Thu. (lecture starts at 10)
^_^
Maybe I'll go jogging every morning again. Just MAYBE.
And I'll need to clear my drawers and cupboard for last modules' stuff.
Good bye, Bstats! I hate you to the core no longer!
But I'll miss cell bio. Weird.
Whatever, and now I'm going to eat my supper and start my tutorials.
Heaven and hell combined together...

2010-02-28T23:12:00.000+08:00

Lunar new year is over, exams are over, now is the start of school holiday.
NOT!
In less than 12 hours time is the start of my diploma plus lectures.
In chemistry, which is my one of my weakest subjects.
Sigh.

The past 2 weeks have gone fast.
House visiting, people visiting, outings, studying and papers.
Having 20 hours of sleep per week is normal.
And now I've to start preparing for lessons.
But at least cca is restarting, time for me to move my stiff bones.

I'm living in a dream, and I don't wanna wake. (:

2010-02-22T00:47:00.000+08:00

Had great fun with my sec sch buddies just now.
Really miss their nonsense and brotherhood love. (mine's sisterly of course!)
We should have more of these gatherings. I insist!(=
Love you all, guys.

Now's time for torture.

2010-02-17T14:19:00.002+08:00

Been an awesome lunar new year and valentine's.
Now's it's time to study. D=

2010-02-12T16:51:00.000+08:00

My turn to perform today, at Bukit Timah Primary School.

Woke up at 5.30am.

Everyone was late except Kelvin and me so we went to collect weapons first and ate some breakfast.

During warm-up XiaoKai sliced his thumb open when doing zhuan ti.

He was sent to the nearest polyclinic and was given 4 stitches.

As a result he wasn't able to perform today.

I really have to take my hat off him.

He didn't yell or anything throughout, just took the pain silently.

(salute!)

As usual, I screwed up the performance.

Went with HongKun to print her assignment in the library and was given a ride from TzeYuen before eating at Alumni and going home.

A bit tired now. Shall take a nap before tidying my table tonight so that I can be free tomorrow.

Adieu.

Take care and heal fast!

2010-02-11T22:01:00.000+08:00

Yes!

Last day of school today, now all's left are three papers and I'll be free for 7 weeks!

Maybe I shall find a part-time job.

Hmm...

Went with the performers to Seletar Camp.

Played a few games there and watched them performed.

Dinner was provided. Too bad Catherine wasn't there or she could have enjoyed the prawns. (=

2010-02-10T14:08:00.001+08:00

Went for self training yesterday.
Did only warm up and splits.
And we chatted throughout the whole training. (=
Had my organic chemistry practical test today.
Wasn't tough as I expected.
Now I have hope to get a B for that module.

Been slacking and procrastinating for the past weeks.
And exam is just a week away.
I seriously seriously need to buck up. Really.

Visiting my sec sch wushu, I miss my "wives".
And is going to enjoy my Seoul Garden buffet tonight. =D

2010-02-05T23:40:00.001+08:00

I'm leading a healthy diet.

1 soft boiled egg in the morning, 1 kani onigiri in the noon and soup with rice for supper.

Sleeping from 2pm to 11pm is very healthy too, so much so that I'm having a horrible headache now. =X

And I missed my training.

At least I'm finally done with COMT, such a torturous module.

And I'm left with 1 more test before study break comes and exam commences.

Should I get lollipop instead of pixon12?

It's so cute and so much cheaper than pixon12. Only problem is that the functions are rather basic.

There's no WiFi, no 12 meagapixel camera and no touch screen.

But lollipop's 6 -8.6 times cheaper...

Love, such a simple word, but hard to express.

2010-02-01T13:05:00.004+08:00

Sleeping from 2+am - 6pm, then no sleep at all the next day, to sleeping from 11+pm - 10am.
How much more can my time clock be screwed?
Did completely nothing useful throughout the weekend.
I ought to be ashamed.
I totally need to buck up now.
2 tests and 1 presentation this week and I'm totally not prepared.
Damn.

Went for the 3km Run for My Lunch yesterday.

Completed the race within 20min.

Swensen ice cream, bananas and 7-UP were offered after race.

Went home with Catherine and showered before going to school for filming for COMT presentation.

Project meeting in school on a Sunday, how much more awesome can I get?

=D

You're awesome!

2010-01-28T14:19:00.001+08:00

Screwed up all my tests this week.
There goes my GPA of 3.0.
Me and my procrastination, sigh.
I need motivation to study.

Exam is coming fast, and I'm totally not prepared.

Been told by my senior to buck up, seems that I really need to work hard.

Take away the tests and I'm actually in a happy mood this whole week.
Can't wait for school to end today, finally watching Avatar in 3D with my sis later in AMK hub.
=D

我是不是在做梦？如果是，请让我再睡下去。

2010-01-25T23:06:00.000+08:00

Went to Swensens after school today.
Had a meal with my sec 4 classmates.
After which they came over to my home to eat the ice-cream cake they bought.
Then we played some games before all dispersed home.
Thank you JiaWei, Kelvin, Kenneth and WenXuan, for the big big Pooh. (:

p.s. WX, I still owe you the RayEarth discs. ><

2010-01-25T00:55:00.002+08:00

Freaking happy!!

Had a dinner with my NP-cum-Sino friends at Ajisen in Plaza Singapore.

Received a cute blue-striped tee from Issac. It's lovely, perfect of new year. Thank you, Issac!

There were 20 of us eating in the restaurant so it was pretty crowded and noisy.

While I was eating halfway, a male waiter presented me with a bouquet of rocher flowers!

I was utterly speechless, no one has given me flowers since I graduated from secondary school.

Thank you, Xiao Kai! You made my day!

Then we walked over to Hangout which provided board and console games.

Joanne and Raynerd give me a mickey mouse necklace. It's so cute!

I'll wear it often! (:

We played twister and it's totally crazy!

The other table was playing taboo and pictionary.

YuLing needs to pick up her drawing skills. Haha.

The others were jamming and singing and they totally look like a rock band!

After all the laughters and screaming, we cabbed or bus-ed home.

After I left the cab and crossed the road, I realized my phone was inside the cab!!

I chased after the cab, and when I finally reached the cab, the bloody light turned GREEN!

Luckily another cab fetched me to chased after it and I got back my phone 2 bus stops away.

What an exciting day.

感动到无话可说。

2010-01-24T03:51:00.001+08:00

Thank all for your wishes! It's the most I've ever received.

Facebook IS a wonderful creation. (Catherine please appreciated that.) ^^

Okay, I woke up at 12(after a wake up call from Qi) on Sat and had lunch at Manhattan Fish Market with PeiQi, ShangYun and YueQin.

They bought a tiramisu cake for me. Yummy!

After which I went home and watched Bandslam with Qi.

Was late and sat Catherine's dad's car to school for the Orchid Park Alumni dinner, which was actually a buffet. ><

Received the lovely "food fight" shirt from Catherine(like finally!). And the card!!

I love them to the max!

Went to the table and (Mr) Daniel Chua came over.

And he passed me a parcel! (totally touched)

It was rochers wrapped by paper of horses. Such thoughts simply made my day.

Went Par Lounge at Orchid Country Club after dinner to chill with the OP wushu peeps.

Saw JunHao and the others walking in after some of us reached first, and didn't realized Alton standing behind me with a cake!

Got a pleasant fright of my life. ^^

Derek got me a white bag. It's so coool!!

To PeiQi, ShangYun, YueQin, Alton, Alwin, Brandon, Catherine, ChangRui, (Mr) Daniel Chua, Derek, HanQiang, JinCheng, JunHao and KahKyun:

Thank you all so much! You guys are awesome!!

没有埋怨。

2010-01-23T01:31:00.002+08:00

Thank you everyone, for all the greetings and best wishes!

And yes, it's the day of the year again, my birthday.

So what's my birthday wish?

To have a simple, happy yet peaceful year ahead. (=

谢谢你的温柔。

2010-01-20T02:24:00.000+08:00

Training on Tuesday:

-warm up

-run 2 rounds around the track

-take PICTURES!

-learn taolu

I didn't managed to learn finish a taolu, or even start one.

But I spent the whole training learning the basis of the basics, how to swing the sword.

Pretty interesting session.

为什么？！

2010-01-17T17:38:00.000+08:00

Damn.
My god-sis of primary 4 has a blog while I only created one when I was sec 3.
Today's kids are so advanced, life's not fair.
)=
Seems like we're a generation behind.
God, I feel so old...

为什么人生就是这样不公平？！